They didn’t see it—the quiet, “I’m sorry, Mom. I want to be good.” The tears slipping down his nose. The frustration welling up in his chest because he couldn’t make his brain understand the situation. They didn’t see him fold his little hands, ask God for forgiveness, or reach out for a hug. They just... Continue Reading →
We vow not to let the hardships of life overtake us, but they do sometimes. Sometimes the darkness stretches out before us and over time, slowly it encompasses our thoughts and emotions and… everything. We determine not to let it affect our relationships. Rock our faith. Make us bitter. But eventually, we feel like we... Continue Reading →
We’re Adopting!!! It’s crazy to me - how much God works in the details. How sometimes pieces of our life don’t make sense for years and then things start to fit… you look back and marvel at how God weaved it all together. For us, adoption is one of those pieces. It’s been a desire... Continue Reading →
(Still catching you up on the last year, so here’s a #throwback. ) Tomorrow we go to the hospital. My husband came home from work early. Not with flowers or chocolate, but a box of pregnancy tests. He remembered. About a month ago I said I was tempted to pick up a box and watch... Continue Reading →
Did you know our fertility journey started on my birthday? That was the first time I found out I was pregnant. I found out I was a MOM. It felt like the best gift ever. I don’t know why, but it was this secret dream I had - to become a mom on my birthday.... Continue Reading →
Wow, guys. It’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything. I’m really sorry. Life has never been this crazy before and there hasn’t been much extra time to write. But I miss it, so hopefully I can start posting again. Be patient with me while I find my voice again. 🙂 There will be... Continue Reading →
To conclude this little series: if you stuck with me this long, thanks a lot! I appreciate it. On the practical side of things, I’m always happy to answer any questions. Supplement brands, good doctors, good lab companies, best anti inflammatories, etc. Oh we’ve been at this for so long… but truthfully, if I could... Continue Reading →
People ask me - what did you do differently? But I can’t say. Because for all my efforts, the “answer” to our fertility struggles wasn’t more tests or meds or diets or doctors. It was God. Wasn’t it the same for all the women who struggled with fertility in the Bible? I think every one... Continue Reading →
I called my husband, crying my eyes out. If I’m honest, I was angry. We had made the responsible decision to stop trying. How did I get pregnant?! It usually took so much work & here it happened after one, half-hearted attempt?! I had had a miscarriage merely one month prior. I wasn’t ready for... Continue Reading →
Months went by. I continued reading books about God’s character. The chapter I read the month I was diagnosed with APS/immune issues talked about how we all have precious things in our life. The author called them our “babies”. She meant it figuratively… but for me it was literal. Her book compared hard seasons of... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 